Heated Debate

I don't know what makes me more upset; people who throw away their dreams or people who put down other people's dreams. Maybe i'll take a poll one day and see what the majority of the population thinks, but right now, that is currently the anxiety I am creating for myself.
That is another thing I hate; my anxiety. I literally make myself sick over things that should not or are not a really big issue. However, I take everything so seriously and want perfection out of everything in my life that I put ridiculous amounts of pressure on myself. Why you may ask? Well, if you really want to know it is because I am afriad to fail. I am afriad I will not be able to make something of myself, that I won't be able to support myself or my future family and I am also afriad of my dreams coming true.
Weird?
I agree, but I am terrified I will get everything out of life that I want. Strange phobia to have, I know, but there is something about actually succeeding and living out the dream I have for myself. Maybe it is because once I fulfill my dream, i'll have nothing else to go after. Once I reach my goal, what comes next? Do you just continuely make goals and have dreams only to one day fulfill all your life's desires?
I feel like life is not that perfect. We are suppose to fail and make mistakes and make goals that are unattainable - all so we continue to push ourselves and drive to be the greatest we can possible be. But what good is a dream if it is unattainable? Or no one believes you can accomplish it?
I have been told my whole life that something I want I will never achieve. That is a great way to influence children into doing great things; don't you think. I have always wanted to work in the movies, with literature, music - the entertainment business I shall say, but not everyone can work in show business. And trust me, I am my worse supporter, because I try and try to convince myself to think logically, but I just can't. I am an idealist - I have all these ideas and dreams for my life, yet have no idea how to get there.
I really think my anxiety comes from the fear of becoming an adult. Yes I am 21 years old and am considered an adult, but I am still in college. I can still make stupid decisions because frankly, I am still a kid. But adulthood is 7 months away, and I am not ready for it. I really hate growing up.